Reddit my ex killed himself gay

Around 2 weeks ago my (19 F) boyfriend (23 M) committed suicide after I told him I wanted to break up. I was the last person he talked to and was on FaceTime with him right up until he hung up and pulled the trigger. We were doing long distance and I cheated on him. A little over six months ago my ex-boyfriend committed suicide. We had dated for five years and were actually trying to work things out so that we could get back together because we believed we were each other’s soulmates.

I told my ex about the affair and ended our relationship. We had just bought a beautiful house and the loss of his family, step son, dream home and the way I betrayed him just devastated him. My brother died by suicide about a year ago and, without going into the specifics, there are some close parallels with the circumstances of your ex's death. I'm obviously a family member and not the ex in that situation, but I do think I have some perspective on what you're living through right now.

If she called him to tell him not to do it, he'd beg he'd to be his girlfriend and how much he was in love with her and that he'll kill himself if she doesn't go out with him. I died in , not now. Lesley Roberts was stunned as she read the devastating final email from her beloved son Alex Hardy. The email had been timed to arrive on 25 November , 12 hours after he killed himself. Less than an hour before the email arrived, Lesley had opened her front door to find a police officer standing there, explaining her son was dead.

Alex was an intelligent and popular year-old with no history of mental illness. Lesley could not understand why he would have wanted to take his own life. His email explained how the foreskin of his penis had been surgically removed two years before. This is commonly known as circumcision, but Alex had come to believe it should be regarded as "male genital mutilation".

He never mentioned this to his family or friends when he was alive. Lesley did not even know her son had been circumcised.

In the following months, she tried to find out more about circumcision. Why had it affected Alex so badly, and why did he feel killing himself was his only option? Alex was the eldest of Lesley's three sons and had been very much longed for, having been conceived after fertility treatment. Lesley says her "dreams came true" when she became a mother in July He also adored his baby brother James, who was born when Alex was The walls and windowsills of Lesley's home in Cheshire are covered in photos of all of them.

Alex sailed through his education and was particularly gifted at English, so much so that his old school established the Alex Hardy Creative Writing Award in his memory. It was while on a school skiing trip to Canada, aged 14, that Alex fell in love with the country. He had enjoyed skiing as a child and the trip reignited his passion. So, when Alex reached 18, he decided to defer university and live in Canada for a year.

The same thing happened after year two. Two years turned into three, then four, and by the time of his death Alex had been living in Canada for five years and had obtained residency. Lesley visited her son several times, both alone and with his brothers and stepfather. They were a close family, but Alex did not tell any of them he was secretly suffering with a problem with his penis.

In , still silently suffering, Alex consulted a doctor in Canada.

It was only a

He was given steroid cream to stretch his foreskin, but went back to the doctor after just a few weeks because he did not think the treatment was working. The medical name for Alex's problem is phimosis. It simply means his foreskin was too tight to pull back from the head of his penis, or the "glans" as Alex referred to it in his email. This is perfectly normal for boys in the early years of their life.

As boys get older, their foreskin usually starts to separate from the head of the penis. Phimosis does not always cause problems, but if it does, problems can include difficulty urinating and pain during sex. In England, the NHS advises topical steroids and stretching techniques - and circumcision as a last resort.